Oh Facebook...

So, an observation I've made as of lately... Why is it, anytime I stand up for something I personally believe in, I'm being perceived as attacking someone else or another religion or political belief, or whatever. I am not. I am standing up for what I believe in, the same way you do. As silly as it is to say it's usually when I post something on Facebook. How lame is that? But it's true. I'm not quite sure how much longer I can hold off until I completely utilize the "Banhammer", as a friend of mine put it. I don't like to ban people, I like to hear what people think, what they feel, etc. But when it's continuously actually degrading my thoughts and opinions, that's not being nice anymore, it's being taken advantage of. If I actually and I mean ACTUALLY got on people and rode them for every little thing they put out there that I didn't agree with, and put them down for their ideas and ideals, and whatnot...you know what I would be? A psychopathic asshole that looked like they were stalking people. That's what. I am not like that...Never will be, don't want to be, and you're not that important for me to focus all of my time and energy on. Sorry. I will be honest. People who are overly religious, and overly political, especially those spreading propagandic bullshit...I block your posts. I don't block you as a person, but I block your posts because why? If I wanted to watch Fox News or CNN I would do so. I don't want to see it in my Facebook news feed all over the damn place. Grow up. You want something to change, and you don't like what our government or president is or isn't doing. WRITE A FUCKING LETTER BUT STOP POSTING BULLSHIT SHITTY SHIT ON FACEBOOK BECAUSE I DON'T CARE TO SEE IT!!!!!!!!!! I'm so over it! The election was a long time ago. We all might not like the president, but I DO DAMMIT!!! I didn't get on a person half as bad as they are now. Sure, I didn't like Bush, but I respected him. I bet if Obama wasn't black he'd get a bit more respect...it's gotta be a difficult job to be him right now, I can't imagine.

Frenemies

So, having enemies kinda sucks...but what sucks even more is when you have friends who pretend to be your friends, but are really your enemies. I call those, "Frenemies."

I've had a few of these in my life time, but I will say I just don't have time for this crap.

So, what do you do when you have to cut ties with a friend? Even though you have a lot in common with them, it just cannot surmount the constant nit-picking, public scrutiny to include complaining about you on their facebook page-as their status-childish. And then to top it all off with not only belittling just about every opinion you have that differs from theirs, but also lashing out very rudely towards your husband and even worse your child? How do you do this? Do you flat out just ignore them till they get the hint-hopefully. Or do you tell them about what they've done to you and how it's hurt you and pissed you off? I'm not sure which.

All I know is that I am a nice person, and I deserve to be treated as such. Things in life happen to where we cannot be available all the time, but no matter what, with true friends you could be apart from them and not talk to them for months, or even years, and still hang out and be together without the whole nagfest of "Well....you haven't been around....if you want to be friends you need to be more consistent." This is what I cannot wrap my head around.

I have a best friend back home-a few actually-and I can go months-years even without talking to that person and when we get together or talk on the phone it's like we never skipped a beat-there was no time lost between us. And do we get on one another for being gone?! NO!!! It's called life! It happens! And sometimes you get really busy with it and are separated for a while. But this person is even bitching about a few weeks, maybe a month or two, and all because I had a loved one back home that got ill and almost died, so we went on an emergency trip back home to be with her-she's doing well and good now-thankfully! But what kind of a friend is like that in that situation? Shouldn't they be supportive, and understanding maybe? That's what I would do anyway...But that's just me I guess.

What pisses me off to is using children as pawns in the 'game'. Whatever the hell kind of a 'game' this might be. But the whole, "Well, if you want to get together again, YOU need to be more consistent in it, because my kids are now finally not asking for you and your son as much now...and I don't want them to get hurt again." Hurt again?! Why did they get "HURT" in the first place? Maybe because YOU are the one that is vulnerable, and indirectly are doing to them what your mother did to you as a child-made you vulnerable. Way to go on breaking that cycle. But seriously...and then your kids get away with murder, but my son so much as looks at a Christmas ornament on your damn Christmas tree and you bellow out-all-out SCREAM at him to GET AWAY FROM THE TREE!!!! When he's only 2 years old?! Bullshit. I'm not dealing with that shit.

A friend of mine said this person was poison, and was a lethal person. I didn't believe them, and didn't want to, but I am now. I can't help it. I've seen it all for myself and it really fucking sucks. And what sucks is I don't think they will ever change....I feel badly for them, and for their kids. Because it's really going to suck for them one day when everyone they care about has distanced themselves. Because for their own well-being, they had to. Just like I am certain I have to now.

Here we go.....

*SIGH*

I didn't fart...

I came up with something kind of funny, at least it was funny to me. I didn't want to forget it, so I'll put it here so I can hopefully remember it lol.

Tonight at dinner time, I had an upset stomach, and needless to say-I farted.

My husband said to me, "No farting at the dinner table!"

I replied with...

"I'm not farting, I'm rearranging my butthole."

Needless to say, my husband thought that was quite funny...and I do too.

I never claimed to be lady-like ALL the time! :)

Done.

Do you ever just get so sick and frustrated with someone, you just can't stand it anymore? I am. Or even people in general. Why the hell do some people think that the sun and moon rises and sets on their ass? And why can't some people be a little more pro-active, instead of reactive? If something happens and you don't like it, DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!!! Change it, don't just sit there and bitch about it, and expect everyone to fucking feel sorry for your shitty, sad, pathetic ass. I'm done! DONE DONE DONE!!! You want my sympathy? Fuck off. I have enough of my own shit to deal with. And STOP MAKING EVERYTHING I SAY ABOUT YOU DAMMIT! I don't need a comparison to everything that I go through, that's not what friends do!!!! STOP IT! FOLLOW YOUR OWN FUCKING ADVICE!!!! And another thing...DO NOT INSULT MY INTELLIGENCE!!! I don't insult your ignorance, but I'm about to. I can taste it, a full on storm is about to blow here. I am done being the nice guy, I am done taking the abuse. I am just done. And another thing, Don't tell me how to be a parent...and don't argue with me about where I grocery shop, I mean seriously?! Knock it off, and grow the fuck up. Happy Holidays lol....

A couple shows I've finally sat down to watch...

So tonight I sat down and watch two shows...one of which I could never watch a whole episode...and the other was one I had been putting off, but since it came after the other...I watched it.

The first one was 'Intervention' on A&E, and then I saw 'Hoarders'.

First off...'Intervention' hit home for me...not for personal usage, I never abused drugs or alcohol...But I know those who have, who are very close to me, and it hurt to watch. It hurt to see someone slowly killing themselves again...and to know that there was always that chance that they'd go back, they'd die, or they'd choose to live and kick the habit. I felt so much sadness and empathy in my soul, it felt heavy. My heart went out to these people that were abusers. Knowing why they did what they did, and seeing how their issues weren't being attended to, broke my heart.

And then 'Hoarders'...I again felt so much empathy I couldn't hardly stand it. I felt for these people, granted my old situation was NEVER that bad...still bad nonetheless, but not as bad as these cases. And to think that there was someone that called me a hoarder because I had a full closet. Pissed me off honestly-it pissed me off then, and it still does. I wish this person had a brain to mouth filter, but apparently they weren't born with one. It pisses me off...if this person accuses me of this again I will say something. I have quite a bit of clothes...but seriously. What woman doesn't? Anyway...

I just wanted to say that these shows were great. So sad, but great.

Thanks A&E for more great shows.

Another day, another someone-else's dollar $.

No matter what I do to try and get ahead...I get bit in the ass. I hate money, and the only reason I hate it, is because I never have enough of it!!!

After paying the bills, groceries, gas, etc, and my HORRIBLY EXPENSIVE past two dental visits....we are just about over our heads. Tax time can't come soon enough.

And why is it, I have seemed to notice, that the people that have an abundance of money don't help other people out (not saying they have to...but I'm just making a point), and then the people that have nothing are always trying to help other people out?

I have a friend, we'll say. She comes over once in a while, and I can think of at least five times now where she's 'forgotten' to bring her child's baby food. Granted I have some, but right now we're almost out, and that stuff isn't cheap. I have never done this to her. Wouldn't you think, or I would anyway, that if you were to use someone's things that often, maybe some money for it would be inorder? I'm not tryint to nitpick, but 2 jars of baby food, in one meal, that's 10 fars there! That's at least 5-6 meals or so for my child!!! And not only that, but she will ask for a pop/soda when here, and a bottle of water-and almost always NEVER finishes either of then, nor takes them with when leaving. I know, again, not trying to nitpick...but that stuff adds up, and is SO expensive!!! I remember when I was a kid, an I would leave a can of pop open and out on the table, my gramma would put it in the fridge, and when I'd ask for another one, she'd make me drink the gross, nasty, flat one. I learned to NEVER leave them out, and to finish them before opening another. I thought it was horrible...but I learned and I NEVER dump out pop/soda in my house....unless said friend is over. I guess it's a pet-peeve of mine to say.

And this is coming from people that make a significant amount of money more than we do...so I guess it just frustates me that people can't see that they're being wasteful....especially when said person scolds me, who is four years older than her, about being wasteful....????

And don't even get me started on dental care!! I can see why a lot of people have such poor hygeine! It's IMPOSSIBELE to afford even if you DO have insurance!!! Granted I didn't have insurance for a long time, and am getting caught up now and paying the price...but still. Yeesh....it's insane!!!!

I guess that's all I have to say...I'm taking my sore mouth, and my sore wallet to bed now. :(

And always right before the holidays too....why is that?

NO!! My Religion is the Right One!!!

...Actually no it's not. And I'm not even 100% sure WHAT my religion is right now. I have my own religion I guess, and I don't expect anyone else to believe what I believe....but I do ask that people respect that it's my choice and my decision as to what I believe.

I do not like anyone who tries to 'thump' their relligion on me, and tells me that I "need to find God" again or whatever. I found him...he was right there behind the couch this WHOLE time! :)

Ha ha ha...That was a funny, you're supposed to laugh.

I have to go make dinner and tend to my family, I will write more on this matter later on, and if not later on, I can almost guarantee that I'll make another post about it later on since it's a 'hot' topic of mine. I love to learn about religions, and discuss the topic with people.

I do not believe that one religion is the only or right way. Realistically....they're all geared towards the same thing.

Believing in something bigger than yourself, or something other than yourself.

Not all are like this, but most. (The two I can think of that are the exception are Atheism, and Agnostisicm...if that's even a word lol). Anyway...

Will discuss....talk amongst yourselves!