Done.

Do you ever just get so sick and frustrated with someone, you just can't stand it anymore? I am. Or even people in general. Why the hell do some people think that the sun and moon rises and sets on their ass? And why can't some people be a little more pro-active, instead of reactive? If something happens and you don't like it, DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!!! Change it, don't just sit there and bitch about it, and expect everyone to fucking feel sorry for your shitty, sad, pathetic ass. I'm done! DONE DONE DONE!!! You want my sympathy? Fuck off. I have enough of my own shit to deal with. And STOP MAKING EVERYTHING I SAY ABOUT YOU DAMMIT! I don't need a comparison to everything that I go through, that's not what friends do!!!! STOP IT! FOLLOW YOUR OWN FUCKING ADVICE!!!! And another thing...DO NOT INSULT MY INTELLIGENCE!!! I don't insult your ignorance, but I'm about to. I can taste it, a full on storm is about to blow here. I am done being the nice guy, I am done taking the abuse. I am just done. And another thing, Don't tell me how to be a parent...and don't argue with me about where I grocery shop, I mean seriously?! Knock it off, and grow the fuck up. Happy Holidays lol....

A couple shows I've finally sat down to watch...

So tonight I sat down and watch two shows...one of which I could never watch a whole episode...and the other was one I had been putting off, but since it came after the other...I watched it.

The first one was 'Intervention' on A&E, and then I saw 'Hoarders'.

First off...'Intervention' hit home for me...not for personal usage, I never abused drugs or alcohol...But I know those who have, who are very close to me, and it hurt to watch. It hurt to see someone slowly killing themselves again...and to know that there was always that chance that they'd go back, they'd die, or they'd choose to live and kick the habit. I felt so much sadness and empathy in my soul, it felt heavy. My heart went out to these people that were abusers. Knowing why they did what they did, and seeing how their issues weren't being attended to, broke my heart.

And then 'Hoarders'...I again felt so much empathy I couldn't hardly stand it. I felt for these people, granted my old situation was NEVER that bad...still bad nonetheless, but not as bad as these cases. And to think that there was someone that called me a hoarder because I had a full closet. Pissed me off honestly-it pissed me off then, and it still does. I wish this person had a brain to mouth filter, but apparently they weren't born with one. It pisses me off...if this person accuses me of this again I will say something. I have quite a bit of clothes...but seriously. What woman doesn't? Anyway...

I just wanted to say that these shows were great. So sad, but great.

Thanks A&E for more great shows.

Another day, another someone-else's dollar $.

No matter what I do to try and get ahead...I get bit in the ass. I hate money, and the only reason I hate it, is because I never have enough of it!!!

After paying the bills, groceries, gas, etc, and my HORRIBLY EXPENSIVE past two dental visits....we are just about over our heads. Tax time can't come soon enough.

And why is it, I have seemed to notice, that the people that have an abundance of money don't help other people out (not saying they have to...but I'm just making a point), and then the people that have nothing are always trying to help other people out?

I have a friend, we'll say. She comes over once in a while, and I can think of at least five times now where she's 'forgotten' to bring her child's baby food. Granted I have some, but right now we're almost out, and that stuff isn't cheap. I have never done this to her. Wouldn't you think, or I would anyway, that if you were to use someone's things that often, maybe some money for it would be inorder? I'm not tryint to nitpick, but 2 jars of baby food, in one meal, that's 10 fars there! That's at least 5-6 meals or so for my child!!! And not only that, but she will ask for a pop/soda when here, and a bottle of water-and almost always NEVER finishes either of then, nor takes them with when leaving. I know, again, not trying to nitpick...but that stuff adds up, and is SO expensive!!! I remember when I was a kid, an I would leave a can of pop open and out on the table, my gramma would put it in the fridge, and when I'd ask for another one, she'd make me drink the gross, nasty, flat one. I learned to NEVER leave them out, and to finish them before opening another. I thought it was horrible...but I learned and I NEVER dump out pop/soda in my house....unless said friend is over. I guess it's a pet-peeve of mine to say.

And this is coming from people that make a significant amount of money more than we do...so I guess it just frustates me that people can't see that they're being wasteful....especially when said person scolds me, who is four years older than her, about being wasteful....????

And don't even get me started on dental care!! I can see why a lot of people have such poor hygeine! It's IMPOSSIBELE to afford even if you DO have insurance!!! Granted I didn't have insurance for a long time, and am getting caught up now and paying the price...but still. Yeesh....it's insane!!!!

I guess that's all I have to say...I'm taking my sore mouth, and my sore wallet to bed now. :(

And always right before the holidays too....why is that?

NO!! My Religion is the Right One!!!

...Actually no it's not. And I'm not even 100% sure WHAT my religion is right now. I have my own religion I guess, and I don't expect anyone else to believe what I believe....but I do ask that people respect that it's my choice and my decision as to what I believe.

I do not like anyone who tries to 'thump' their relligion on me, and tells me that I "need to find God" again or whatever. I found him...he was right there behind the couch this WHOLE time! :)

Ha ha ha...That was a funny, you're supposed to laugh.

I have to go make dinner and tend to my family, I will write more on this matter later on, and if not later on, I can almost guarantee that I'll make another post about it later on since it's a 'hot' topic of mine. I love to learn about religions, and discuss the topic with people.

I do not believe that one religion is the only or right way. Realistically....they're all geared towards the same thing.

Believing in something bigger than yourself, or something other than yourself.

Not all are like this, but most. (The two I can think of that are the exception are Atheism, and Agnostisicm...if that's even a word lol). Anyway...

Will discuss....talk amongst yourselves!

Her name is 'William'...

Yes...'Her' name is William.

I am getting sick of people assuming my child is a girl because he has longer hair.

I love his hair, I don't want to cut it, and I won't just for a social stature. So screw off. His hair is gorgeous....and once you cut it, the beautiful golden ringlets are gone, and they no longer look like babies, but like mini-adults. And you know what? I'm just not ready for that yet. :( So leave me alone.

Stop asking, I'm not going to cut it. And when I do, you'll be the first to know. Don't like it, well, that's too bad because he's not your son. But thanks for playing...

Me me me me me....

I'm not quite sure what world some people live in, but no matter how much you bitch, whine, cry, and complain....THE WORLD IS STILL NOT REVOLVING AROUND YOUR ASS!!!!! I'm SO sick of it!!!

And I think that an ex of mine's g/f imagines me to be some kind of a threat, that maybe I'm trying to get him back somehow...No. Just No.


AND NOT TO MENTION THAT I'M IN A TOTALLY DIFFERENT FUCKING STATE!!!! Seriously.

Okay so we have this...

-I would NEVER cheat on my husband, I love our little family.
-The world doesn't revolve around me, or you, or anyone else for that matter. You are not the axis upon which the world turns.
-It's not all about you you you you you. And it's not about me me me me me.
-One sided relationships of any kind are hot garbage.
-Get over yourself.
-I had him first, you had him second, guess what that means? HAH! :)

*shakes head and laughs*

Grow up people. I'm too old for this bullshit.

Pets are not disposable.

I am getting SO sick of people that get rid of pets because of stupid reasons. You know..."Where I'm moving to I can't take them with me" or whatever excuse.

What is REALLY driving me batty, are people using craigslist and especially freecycle as a place to give away their pets. I suppose it's okay since most are trying to give their pet away free to a good home, but how can you be sure? Why can't you just keep your pet? Especially those dogs and cats that people have had for multiple years. How can you just get rid of them?! It just breaks my heart. I grew up with pets, and they were always our pets till they died.

And WHY WHY WHY for the love of GOD WHY!!?? Are people breeding animals?! There are SO many unwanted, uncared for, unloved pets in shelters, that will only end up being put to sleep because they have no homes. I am getting pretty sick of seeing people giving away puppies (purebred and pedigree I guess I get, because they use them for shows and crap, and other garbage that I think is horrible...but that's another story). Why can't people adopt from the shelters? Before breeding these crazy mixes of weird dogs like Cocker Spaniel and Pitbull? 90 percent of rental places won't allow certain breeds of dogs, and those are the ones that seem to be breeding!!! Like pitbulls, and german shepards, and whatever....WHY WHY WHY?!??! I just don't get it people....

And the same goes for cats. GET YOUR AMINALS SPAYED/NEUTERED!!!!!!!!! For the love of God!!!!!! I get so sick and tired of seeing some poor animal dead on the road because it was probably feral....and that's just not right. These animals deserve loving, and kind homes. Not the streets. Breaks my heart.

Time to put kiddo down for a nap....I'll write more later.

I'm just sick and tired of people looking for the easy way out when it comes to pets and animals. Having a pet is like having a child, they're not a commodity or novelty toy.

Please don't....

...Insult my intelligence. I don't insult anyone's ignorance.

I am not bragging, only stating mere points. I am well-educated, I am well-read, I have common sense which is an uncommon virtue anymore. Please do not treat me as if I don't have any of the above forementioned qualities. I went to high school, graduated, and have been to college twice, I have my Associates Degree in Applied Science, and also my Certificate for Medical Office Premier consisting of medical transcription, medical coding, and medical billing. I am also considering going back to school again someday, not 100% sure yet, but possibly for Pharmacist.

I love to help others, and I like to do so in a non-offending way. If I ask for your help, or assistance, or ask you why you think or feel the way you do. Back up what you have to say and think. If it's a personal opinion, fine. Just admit that. But don't expect people to take that as written law, since it won't fly. It just won't. If it were that simple imagine how easy it would be to run the world....really...

If you want to make someone pissed off pretty fast, insult my intelligence. I am not a moron, and I won't treat you like one, unless of course you give me a reason TO treat you like one!!!

I say this, even though a few minutes ago I dumped fricking pink nail polish on my newly cleaned bathroom rug.....ugh. I hope I got it in the wash again in time....I love that rug. :(

And I hate it when you put on a nail polish, thinking, "Wow I haven't worn this in a while...it'll look cool!" And it still looks like crap, you know, the same as it did when you tried that last time? lol....oops. Who knows why I keep it....probably because it's purple, shiny, and holographic looking. :)

Bedtime, Ambien is kicking in finally.

Getting some things off of my chest...

Okay...so I'd like to think that I'm a pretty nice person. But I have to admit that I am really sick of quite a few things. First off, what comes to mind is unwarranted parenting advice. ESPECIALLY if you don't have kids.

Honestly....please tell me what you know from your experience as a non-parent? Seriously? And even if you ARE a parent. If I wanted your advice or opinion, I know how to ask for it. So if I haven't, please don't offer, because I don't want it. Also, I am choosing to breastfeed my son for as long as I can. 2 years is my goal or close to it-whenever we both decide it's time to stop. I am a firm believer in child-led weaning. I love the bond that my baby and I can share by nursing, and I'm sorry for those of you who weren't able to nurse, or chose not to. I started out formula feeding and I regret it LIKE HELL to this day. I see pics of my son with a bottle and it makes me want to throw up...unless it was a bottle of breastmilk, and I CAN tell the difference in looking. I'm so glad I changed my mind when I had the chance...And people that give up the excuse, "Oh, well it hurts" (OF COURSE it hurts!! I can't even TELL you how everytime I had to feed my baby in the beginning of breastfeeding how badly my toes CURLED from pain...I would cry/laugh from the pain! But I GOT OVER IT!!!) "Formula is just as good" (Have you tried and smelled that shit? GROSS) "I think it's weird" (Women/mammals have been doing this since the beginning of time, but it's weird...um, okay.) blah blah blah....Where in the hell did this country go wrong, in letting women think that it's OKAY to NOT feed your baby the way we were always meant to? Seriously-Breasts have been INCREDIBLY over-sexualized by the public in the United States. And the dirty looks I used to get when I would nurse my son in public, DISCREETLY mind you, meaning I had a blanket over him-if he would let me-and it's not like you can see anything anyway!! I wanted to slap the stupid out of those people!!! I am now a huge breastfeeding advocate, but I'm not a nazi about it, but at the same time I do not appreceate anyone tell me what I should do, or shouldn't do, and the fun-poking that goes on-by people that are supposed to care about me. Thank goodness for my supportive husband, or I wouldn't have made it this far.

I am a firm believer in a lot of chld-led weaning of different topics. And I do mean child-led weaning in a lot of things...even weaning off of baby food completely. My son doesn't like stage three foods either by the way-get the fuck over it. I have. If it's making him gag, and throw it all up then I think that he doesn't like it. And really, have you tried that shit? It's disgusting. He eats fruits and veggies still in baby food (and he eats them in solids too...just not all the time yet). And loves to eat whatever we're eating. I feed my son when he's hungry...not just at his set mealtimes. I think it is totally normal, and healthy for a child to eat meals, and have snacks throughout the day.

And one of my HUGE deals, BIG BIG deal...yes, parenting books, and whatever other kind of literature is okay to read as far as parenting goes for tips and ideas...but it's not THE way one should parent his or her child...Guidelines maybe, and ideas definitely...but no one, NO ONE should go by any one book to tell them how to raise their child(ren).

And I have to say personally, that 'Babywise' Book, By Gary Ezzo, and Dr. Robert Bucknam, wasn't worth me even buying. While implimenting a schedule for eating and sleeping for your baby is a great idea...I REALLY think it's ridiculous, especially for a newborn. They can only eat so much at any given point in time, and what about growth spurts? When the child eats more than they usually do? And as far as this book and breastfeeding goes, it's a load of garbage.
I think, that the reason I have been able to nurse for so long, is because I've fed my child on demand.

And wow...I even co-slept for a while (More so we'd put our son to bed in his crib, he'd wake up hungry around 3-4 am, and we'd put him in bed with us then, and there he would sleep off and on till around noon. Nice huh?) I never had a problem getting him to sleep in his own crib as he got older, and naptimes and sleep times have never been an issue...and if they were at one time an issue, it was because we were all new at this game, and trying to figure things out. Once we did, it was all downhill from there.

Also, for MONTHS my son would only nap in his swing....but when he did he would sleep for up to 2-3 hours! It was beautiful! I had quite a few people tell me, "Well what are you going to do when he's too big for it and won't sleep in his crib?" Well I couldn't answer that one, I really never had a problem. He cried a couple of times....but there came a day when he didn't want to swing to sleep anymore...and he slept just fine in his crib. Funny, the 'books' said I'd have a problem. Whatever...

Is it wrong that I don't go by a book to raise my child? I don't think so. The only way I have known thus far how to parent my child, is by what my heart tells me to do. And so far he's becoming a wonderful, well-dispositioned, funny, loving, sweet, obedient little person. He's very smart, healthy, and SO loved. Isn't that what's important? I think so...There isn't a book out there that can tell you to parent from the heart....anyone can be a mother or father, but it takes a real person to be a momma and dada if you ask me.

Another thing I am completely COMPLETELY sick and tired of, is being a friend of convenience. So you're having a bad day? Bad things are happening to you? You feel like your walls are closing in....I've been there, and I'm there for you. But then those people completely shit on you when you need them...This is what's happened to me time and time again. I'm sick of it, and I'm done. I am done with one-sided friendships. Any relationship that is one-sided is a joke. These people had better pull their heads out of their asses and realized this before they lose me as a friend for good. Because I'm done.

I am sick of martyrs. NO the world doesn't owe you anything...and neither do I!!! Stop acting like you're the only one that bad things happen to...YOU AREN'T!!!!!!!!! It happens to millions of people around the world. So get the fuck over yourself. THE-WORLD-DOESN'T-OWE-YOU-ANYTHING!!! Stop acting like it does!!! I can't even tell you half of the shitty things that have happened to me, but I don't tell anyone about it. I take care of it, and I move on.

Deal with your issues, and figure it out. Not everyone wants to know about your drama....And also, not everyone is looking for solutions to their 'problems' either. Somtimes just getting it out there, and having someone listen is good enough. I can't even find anyone to listen to me anymore. Except my best friend 'C' I will call her, and my husband. Half the time my mom and my gramma are too busy as well...but they do listen, and I think it's because they're still dealing with the loss of a child/brother. And I'm dealing with the loss of an uncle as well...Some days are harder than others, that's normal and expected. Anyway...

When I do post something on the internet....I expect whatever kind of comments...but shitty comments from friends and family? Don't tell me my business. I won't tell you yours....and don't assume things. It all makes an ass out of you and me. Yes, this is true. I am amazed at some of the shit people put on their myspace/facebooks....almost scary really. But when I put something simple and stupid up there, I'm not looking for your scientific response....Nor am I looking to be put down. If you can't say something nice, then shut up. Thanks.

Also, facebook has those nifty little game applications and such....people always bitch about not wanting to play 'farmville' or 'mafia wars' or whatever. If you don't want to fucking play, THEN YOU CAN OPT TO BLOCK THE APPLICATION AND ALL INVITES ETC COMPLETELY!!!! But I really think that some people just like to have something, as mundane as this, to bitch about. Some people, if they didn't have something to bitch about, would probably die. I know alot of people like that.

And I'm sick of theft/stealing and people hurting other people...violence in general.

Also, IT'S NOT ALL ABOUT YOU!!!!!! No, really IT'S NOT!!!!!!!!!! You might think so, but you're WRONG!!!!!!! There are other people in this world other than you....crazy to think of, I know, but it's TRUE!!!!!

I am sick of political and religious bashing. Knock if the fuck off. Nobody is right, nobody is wrong. Get over it and move on. It's all about personal beliefs, and not about some fucking bandwagon bullshit. Both have become so corrupt now, no wonder I have no political party, nor any specific religion.

Also, lastly, DO NOT discipline MY child, when I am sitting RIGHT THERE!!!!!! What is wrong with you? Before I can even say anything? Really? Try parenting your own....I'll take care of mine thank you. Also, when you're here, watch your OWN child....I'm not going to do it for you.

*SIGH*

I think this is all I can bitch about for now...I need to go eat dinner. I feel a bit better now though. :)